I don’t want to see them. I don’t want to talk to them. I just want to leave. I want to move out. I can fend for myself. 

I was actually all set to go away for school. Go to Niagara College for Pre-health rather than waste a year like my brother and work. I get it, work gets you money, which then you want to spend. Id honestly rather be in school. My parents are something else. Instead of going to Pre-health this year, they want me to wait it out and just straight into nursing. I would… If the deadline wasn’t until May 1st to confirm and if there wasn’t a waiting list at every fucking other college or university. They should have told me this earlier…when I was fucking applying. I wasted $100 for nothing and not going to school. I honestly don’t know what to do. They just told me to wait it out until next year. and from there I can work. My brother took a year off and told the parents he will go back to school… and its been a year and he’s still working. He’d rather work then go to school. Unlike me Id rather be in school… I can’t believe they don’t want to support me on this decision! I had my classes picked, a place to live with rent which was walking distance to school. Fuck them. Im honestly so pissed about it.

It was really a nice moment when my brother woke me up at 2am to give me a hug and tell him that he was leaving to go to Dominican today. My brother and I are very close, so I gave him the biggest hug ever. A now its less than 24 hours, and of course I miss that bugger already. As I’m typing, tears are falling. But he’s only there for a week then he will be back which is good.

Usually I work daily, and My boyfriend usually comes in he morning to either cuddle, hang out or drop me off to work. Now that my brother is gone I have no car and my parents were both working. Im surprised that he told me that he wouldn’t drop me off today because he a job! A job is a job even if its at his Dad’s Dental office all summer from 8am-8pm Monday to Friday with a $13.50/hour. And i said Hey… take it. Im just really proud of him that he finally has something to do over the summer. Earn some money and say that its actually his. I love my man and all, and I’m glad he has something to do. Looks like I need to pick up more shifts at the restaurant or apply for a new job while I’m at it. 

Im both happy and sad at the same time. I wasn’t expecting that long work load. This means no morning get togethers, no breakfast, no early morning cuddling, no dinners during the week, ill only get to see him on the weekend. We won’t have much to do over the summer since we are both travelling. Ill be in the Philippines for a month, then going to Montreal and heading to California. While he is also travelling to Malta right when i reach back from the Philippines. Then when school hits, he’s back in Oakville and ill be in Niagara, which is even farther than before. But then again, we always try to make it work. I will always support him with everything and he does his part as well. That is what I love. We end up doing out own thing, and then meet in the middle. Im just happy that we are both doing something that we love. I know he will go far, he’s an amazingggggg at what he does. He wants to become an illustrator, as for me a nurse. Overall thats 4 more years for the both of us and I know we will make it, especially with him by my side.